Time to Quit!!!!

Smoking that is. After reading some interesting (frightening) stuff on smoking (tobacco that is). I am taking the plunge. I have had only 3 drags (guilt-ridden ones at that) since Friday night. Pretty good, between my welbutrin and valium I have killed no-one yet and it doesn't seem that bad. I really miss the times I smoked. For example after lunch was a time for reflection (and a couple of butts), walking the dogs was time for reflection (and a couple of butts). Sounds really stupid when you put it in words.

Why you might ask. Well it started with a cold about 6 weeks ago. Turned into bronchitis and just sat there. Everyday and night cough-cough-cough, spit, hack sniffle. Pretty pathetic if you ask me. So off to the Dr. Mr Doctor sir, I have cold that won't go away. Do you smoke? is the FIRST thing he asked. Damn....OK, explained to him that I had tried before, was going to try again etc etc etc. He perscribed an inhaler, not your ordinary kind. You know albuterol, puf ever few hours etc. Oh no, this one has directions on the side for people with EMPHYSEMA and serious lung related ailments. Now you gotta understand I am turning 50 this year and have beeen smoking since I was 15. Let's do the math...35 YEARS! Well, if that aint a looong time. Seems like that's enough time to do some serious damage. So I start thinking, a little shortness of breath, a little chest pain, too much hackin' and coughin'. Hmmm....If I'm going to put anything in my lungs I want it to be fresh air or dope. So I have chioce, I can either really try and stop or I can keep on and die relatively early. I have a lot I want to do so I'm gonna quit. So now it's been almost 3 days and I'm not doing so bad.

Wish me luck, wish me success, so far I'm doing OK...